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Truer Words

May 7, 2016

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Chuck Lorre… “truer words might not have been spoken”.  “This might even be a golden rule”.
I’ve been told that if you change your mind, you change the world – or at least the way you experience it. Let’s take a moment to examine that. The presumption is, if you thought the world was a hostile, ugly place filled with awful people doing awful things, that is what you’d see. Your mind would naturally seek out confirmation for its preconceived ideas (e.g., if you’re intent on buying a red car, as you go about your day you’ll see lots of red cars). If, however, you were able to sincerely change your mind and see that we are all God in drag, that we are the conscious aspects of a perfect universe which had to create us so we could bear witness and stand in awe before its loving magnificence, then that is the soul-shaking reality you’d be greeted with each and every moment of each and every day. In other words, it is entirely our choice as to what kind of world we live in. With a simple decision, we can suffer in the darkness or play in the light. We can be angry, frightened and enslaved, or loving, joyous and free. I know. It’s a toughie.

Long Time No Read

Apr 15, 2016

Boy Series 1986It has been very along time… I’ve been away in my head for a bit. And decidedly so. It was 2013 since I last wrote and I guess I just needed to have time to process. At times I think we just exist while we are internally sifting through all the layers to see what we should keep. And for what to let go of.

My relocation was like that. I relieved myself of lots of left over life that I did not need. I have found many times I still am doing that. Some things lingering that need a new existence. No longer necessary. Going thru left overs in my head and in my physical world. And feeling refreshed from it. I feel like I have tipped the scale now and am on the other side of all that. It must be about grief. Sad addressing it but good after its gone. Lost love and stuff that suggests the past. As I let go I find a better more settled sense of self.

Dying and living and working and breathing is a lot. No one can do it except you. I have been out of touch for this time frame with intent to understand things that have happened in my life. To relate to them simply for future reference. I was scared in my new world. I rarely saw someone who could make it better. A few years of processing and most of it has been me coping with heart failure and moving and love loss and it all seemed to be a barrel full of pain and poor me and yet doors open slowly. I have met people that I call friends.. I lost my sweet Hunter of 12 years. Kobi and I are creating a new fresh sense of relating. I have been just doing what I have to do in full contemplation of all the newness around me. It took some getting used to living in town. It took almost a year to climb out from under my rock each morning and go to work. Simply to process each day calmly and without expectations. Just being.

2016 is a so very different. I recognized it like an aha moment … I think its just time… which is the best healer. I feel more comfortable. The learning curve of my life now seems to be in favor of my happiness. I’ve settled with the studio and made nice changes. The balance of coping with life versus simply being is better and I think “being” is in favor. Its all a personal process and you can share it with whom ever you like according to the outcome. I am simply better and I guess it took a bit of time. We really only have the time that we offer ourselves. Life is better and I have happily been relating to myself and opening up to others. My heart and soul are back into creativity and this year has more clarity. I feel better in essence and excited for the newness I am recognizing. I guess It’s all about patience.

Wishing you all patience Till next time. “)

Friends

Jan 14, 2014

GreenmanHere is one for ya… I had a mishap while heading to New York for a show a couple of months ago,  American Art Marketing’s American Fine Craft Show NYC.

I was very excited for this show…not that it had a reputation for greatness, but that I had done so much to improve my little intimate store I put up every time there is a show for me to do. I spiffed it up. I made a new scarf rack that would allow all to be shown and easily taken off…painted it, rigged it to hang off the wall and be effortless to ship. Mostly it would be easy to look at a scarf. Doing that increased my display area for more coats to show. I like showing the one-of-a-kinds face out. I’m proud of them. I was cleaning my act up and ready to go. New lights and all. I was ready for the show. (more…)

Enter the fall…

Oct 15, 2013
fall path 10-13

Fall has arrived

Fall is finally here… this last week was the defining frame of reference when wet and cool began to trigger the changes. It does something to you. At first it’s the summer is ending. Love to have an extra month of summer. Then excitement for the fall because of its beauty. It will be a good fall even at this pace. Wet cool year might give us really good color.

The change still seems slow and lazy in a good way. I just now only see the Red Oak’s leaves on the ridge across. Hints of all the reds and yellows. Actually seems like the whole year has been lazy and just getting-along. Taking its time. Maybe a reflection of me and how I’ve been accepting the changes in my life. Not going crazy over what is expected. In fact I feel as lazy as the afternoons at times. I feel no pressure for anything unless I have procrastinated. It does happen. (more…)

Home again

Aug 31, 2013
American Craft Exposition August 2013

My booth at the Evanston show

Evanston was challenging but full of fun. Shows are not always about money yet we artists have this intense focus to get it all together. To build a store for all to see. As we work in our studios we forget our extended family and their value to us. I met people that had things for me to learn and was very open to and helped me evolve a bit closer to what I strive to be. A good human being. The show was good and did what it needed to do for my economic stability. Considering all the troubles the ladies of the show had to deal with like construction and heat etc. They were troopers. I felt cared for and befriended by them. Each show teaches me what to alter and how to improve my space and my sales etc. (more…)

Off to Evanston!

Aug 8, 2013
wall hanging ready for framing

Wall hanging ready for framing

Headed for my first Evanston show (ACE) on 19th of August. I have been applying to this show for 20 years with never a chance and I am so excited. It’s also a 2-day driving trip for me which I don’t usually do but I have faith in this show and have some really new work that is so exciting. Layers on layers of dyeing for visual depth. I will be sharing the show with many peers. It’s similar to a family reunion. I need to do the show in a group like this as I have not done a show in a few months. Simply to do more booth and business revamping and what I design and how it’s displayed. I’m nervous as most of us are…usually it’s just like performing in a way. You get the shakes but once you get there you realize it’s back to the basics. Getting that booth up and making it just right for this show. (more…)

It’s all a new beginning for me

Jul 27, 2013
View from the studio

View from the studio

In the beginning well… my old life has changed and it’s all a new beginning for me. Has been for a little while now. Michael Kane is my name and my life over the last few years has changed so dramatically that it could have possibly killed me if I was not the Capricorn that I am. I have embraced huge changes over the last 2-3 years. A long time ago in a land far away an entity told me to pay attention to my thoughts and with practice over the last 25 years I am pretty good at it. Now I am grateful for them all. All is well and I’m out of the woods as far as being an individual and not a caretaker. I am a new Buddha of sorts. The Buddhaboy I always wanted to be. (more…)